I have had a lot of time to think the past couple of weeks as to what direction I want to take with my life. What I really want to do and where I want to be. Now, granted I had no grand gesture from God telling me what I was to do and where He wanted me to go. (Although that would have made things so much simpler.)
But I did realize that at 26 (ouch!) years old I have no kids, no significant other, nothing tying me down. I could be a vagabond and not have to answer to anyone. Granted people would be upset, my father would chastise me and ask me what my "plan" is. The thing is, I've never really had a plan. Nor have I ever been fond of the idea of it. I had an idea of what I wanted but I never gave myself a chance to explore that idea.
Maybe I'll just take time to be selfish and think of me and what I want to do. I have no obligations to anyone. My family will always be there to love me at the end of the day no matter what decisions I make. Maybe it's time for me to pick up and start over somewhere new. Somewhere where no one knows my name, where no one knows who I am or what my past is. It's a clean slate.
sometimes i think that is such a good idea...to move. but i have jakob and tim. if i were single and free with no kids i would go live in nyc.
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