I would like to preface this post by explaining that if you don't know what type of person I am already just know that I am the least judgmental, most forgiving and patient person there is. I put up with a LOT of crap before I just walk away from a friendship. Now, I'm not saying that to fluff my own feathers but merely to express that I'm not a bad person. I've never in my life encountered anyone who flat out doesn't like me and thinks that I'm out to get them....until now. I won't use names for the sheer fact that it's rude and I wouldn't want anything to come back and bite me in the ass although I'm quite certain that it will regardless of my efforts.
This person has held disdain for me for years. I've tried in more ways than one to fix this notion and mend what I could but no matter how much I try or what I say it never waivers. I know I shouldn't care what they think of me but unfortunately I am in a position to where I cannot simply walk away from this person and pretend they don't exist. It hurts to know that I originally cared so much for this person and that I was being deceived the whole time. Not only did they go behind my back and invade my privacy but they also won't be grown up enough to come to me and discuss their issues. My biggest pet peeve is fake people who pretend to like you or be something they're not. This is all that I've gotten from this person from years. I've been used emotionally and never really been treated like the adult that I now am.
I say all this to say that I don't know what to do at this point. If I speak my mind with this person then they might dislike me more than they already do. My filter doesn't work at all so it's all or nothing! If I say nothing then I'll just be allowing my annoyance to bottle up inside. Ugh.