Wednesday, February 23, 2011


A friend of mine just said to me, "as long as you always make the decision to better your relationship with your family and you don't leave your child behind then you'd be a good mom." The fuel behind her statement is a fight her and I got into over Christmas break. And I will say that every time I go home for the Christmas I struggle with evening out the time between my friends and family because there's a lot of people there that I only get to see once a year. Yet each year her and I always get into an argument because she thinks I'm not making enough time for her. This year was no different. She was even more hurt because I didn't spend more than an hour give or take with her son. I won't go into specifics for fear of me getting on my soap box but I will say that it was not my fault that I didn't get to spend as much time with her as either of us would have liked.

Why do people feel the need to give their opinion when it was clearly not asked for? If you really think someone needs to hear something you might want to take the time to really put thought into what you're saying and present it better so you don't offend the person you're talking to especially if you claim that they are your family.

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

Hello, my name is The Relationship Whisperer!

Friday night I went to dinner with three of my girl friends. All three of these friends were having boy issues. Friend #1 had just broken up with her long term boyfriend by moving out while he was at work. She was frustrated at his inability to understand the situation and didn't know how to respond to the numerous text messages. So I took her phone and typed out a mean yet dignified message to the jackass (and when I say jackass that's an understatement. The guy cheated on her after her dad had just passed away). Friend #1 was like, 'Omg, that's awesome! Here, keep responding to him!' The other two girls thought that it would be a fantastic idea for me to text their guys as well. There I sat, typing away expressing feelings and trying to fix relationships.

And to top it off yesterday morning friend #2 asked me to type and send her a message to forward to a guy that she wasn't interested in who kept calling and texting her and flat out being rude and obnoxious. And after that yet another friend of mine came to me and asked me my opinion on what she should do in her current relationship. So apparently I am now the relationship whisperer!

I called my mom (because I'm lame and my mom is my best friend whom I tell everything to) to tell her of my newly discovered calling. After asking me advice regarding my step-dad (as she often does) she agreed. Once I talked it out with her soon I realized that I am great with relationships but my fear of commitment and rejection keeps me so far out of the game that I can't even use the advice I give and have the option to strike out.

Who knows if I will actually be able to use this as a turning point and quit being self sabotaging or if I will continue to do the same thing I've been doing. Here's to hoping!

Friday, February 18, 2011

Something in the water.

The full moon = crazy people! If anyone ever thinks that this statement is a myth needs to just come on down to my office and deal with these lunatics. You'll quickly learn that it's definitely true.

Actually, the full moon craziness spans throughout this whole week for me. Amidst planning my own birthday party, taking care of my sick father, working and unexpected pregnancies the work crazy feels more crazy than usual.

So glad that it's a 3 day weekend. TGIF!!!!

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Operation Crazy

Today I came to the realization that even though I complain about being's much better than being in a relationship filled with drama. Though I've never been one for drama even when I'm in a relationship. You want to go out with your guy friends? Please do, that way I have time to hang out with my friends. Don't want to sit on the phone for hours talking about what I think I should wear? Sweet. Cause I don't care either! Want to go to a strip club with your friends? Cool, as long as you don't go home with anyone or spend hundreds of dollars on dances and liquor that's fine with me! Seriously, it is.

So even though I'm that chill about things that should cause arguments and sheer boredom...I'm still alone. After doing my 'field work' evaluating other people's relationships I have noticed that guys are somehow attracted to the crazy, over the top, jealous, needy girls. I haven't found one that hasn't put up with at least one of those qualities. By nature I have none of those qualities. Ok, maybe I'm a little jealous sometimes but it never gets to the point where I feel like I need to account for every girl's number in his phone or make sure that he doesn't smell like woman's perfume.

This research leads me to believe that if I start acting neurotic and crazy then maybe I'll be "normal" enough to get a guy. Operation Crazy begins!

Monday, February 14, 2011

Happy Single's Awareness Day!

It's Valentines Day. Yay. Everyone is all lovey dovey and buzzing about dates, presents and what wonderfully romatic thing their sweetheart did for them. Now, I am not a completely bitter old spinster but I think I might be getting closer and closer every year. I've never really had a date for Valentine's Day unless I was in a relationship...and even then I had a boyfriends that were so inept that they couldn't even send flowers let alone try and get a dinner together.

With that said, I'm not really big on what gifts I get, being taken out or whatnot. All I ask is that you think of me. If you can put in enough effort to pick up a phone or send a few carnations; that would be enough in my book. Am I that lucky? Nope.

I am aware that I'm getting older and still single, I can deal with it. But Valentine's Day is the one day every year where I can't just deal with it because this day is a CONSTANT reminder that I'm single and that Cupid wants nothing to do with me. So, I will try to get through today with my sanity. I will ignore the explosion of hearts and flowers and all the gushy crap. (And the really crappy part is that I am a complete sappy, fairytale, movie love romatic...I make myself sick.) I will now go and eat heart shaped foods and enjoy my Singles Awareness Day.

Thursday, February 10, 2011

People are stupid...I'll opt for a ride with The Doctor.

Ok, so be forewarned that there really is no point to this post other than to allow myself to vent. If you don't want to read incoherent dribble...I suggest you look away.

First vent: I don't understand how it is possible for someone so ignorant and idiotic to have a position in a legal office. How? How is it possible that someone got through enough hands to be deamed qualified to have a job when they literally walk into walls and doesn't know how to work a copier? I know that everyone has to learn and come into their own...but when you've been in this profession for a few years then it's time to stop acting like you have no clue what's going on or get out! I wouldn't care but it's interfering with my work and it needs to stop.

Second vent: Usually I have always been the go-to shoulder to cry on for friends, family, strangers, etc. I have no problem doing this and it's always given me a sense of honor because someone needed me. But every once and a while I need a shoulder to cry on. And no matter how small and silly or how big and serious it is...I can never find someone willing to be the shoulder I get to cry on. It makes me feel as though I need to reevaluate all my relationships and friendships with the people in my life. I don't mind the give but I think I should be able to take every now and then. Because sometimes it's about me....not all the time but sometimes.

And now I am done with my venting. I will now proceed to go home and veg out with some Doctor Who and Vampire Diaries. Yesssss!

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

The boy is mine...or yours...or mine?

My dark little rain cloud of a friend is starting to be less and less dark. She of course still has the underlying dark and twisty-ness that she loves so much and makes her unique in her own right. Love her! Now there is a guy she's "dating" and isn't interested in taking it any further with him...or so she says. She says he's too young for her, he's too nice, too shy, too much of a good guy, etc. Though she knows he's a great guy...he's just not for her. My dark little rain cloud wants me to date the nice guy. Great, right? Well, it would be fantastic except she hasn't told him that she's not all that interested in continuing things with him. Now at this point if I swoop in and try to get with him I'm gonna look like the bitch for stealing a guy that's obviously interested in my friend and thinks they're together. And to make matters worse...she's still hung up on her ex...and there's also another guy that she's sort of talking to.

I figure I'll just be friends with him until she decides that it's time for her to release him back into the wild. I'm not one for waiting around or taking leftovers but when I say that I have never met a more perfect's a huge understatement. Besides, it's only been a couple of days...who knows what will happen. Though by saying all of this I most likely jixed myself as usual. Ugh!