Tuesday, August 24, 2010

I should be in bed.

When it's raining so hard that you can't see the road ahead of you...that's a sign that maybe we shouldn't be driving into work. Rainy days always translate to lazy days especially in Florida. If you have never experienced the wonderful rainy season of Florida...let me enlighten you. First the sky turns black...and I'm not talking just a little dark I'm talking 8:00pm dark. Then the rain comes. Now this is no ordinary rain. This is a torrential downpour. This wonderful combination makes it almost impossible to drive in and in turn makes you not even want to leave your house. It has been like this all day....which is not cool in the least bit. It's one thing if I had something to do at work but alas I do not. The server is down which means no one can do any work yet the boss thinks we all need to be here. Super. Is this day over yet?

Monday, August 16, 2010

Just Breathe...

You know when people say that their patience is wearing thin or they are losing their patience? Well today mine does not exist. Why? Maybe it's because it's Monday and I'm back at the office. Maybe it's because my father has gone on more dates this weekend than I have in an entire month. Or maybe it's just because I don't want to be here at the moment and my supervisor has decided to take what I said and throw it back and me like she's trying to teach me how to do what I just schooled her on. And all of that is just a mere fraction of it all. Now granted I'm not in a 3rd world country fighting for my life and food and living in poverty...I am grateful for what I have; I truly am. All I'm saying is that I'm just a little annoyed and I need to find some perspective in these motions that we call life. What's the trick to it all? Are there cliff notes or shortcuts somewhere? I only wish that I knew.

Friday, August 13, 2010

Hot Mess

I was told by my boss yesterday that I need to get it together and find pride in my work again. Don't get me wrong, I really do like what I'm doing but I just don't think I like it as much as I used to. After 5 years working at the same firm...I'm kinda burned out. I'm making 'rookie mistakes' according to my boss. 101 mistakes that are so minor it's ridiculous. I think I just need a different career all together. Maybe I'll just move to Ireland for a year and work at a market or something. It's just sad that I don't have the passion that I used to. Thank God that today is Friday which means that I don't have to be a professional until Monday. I hope that everyone else is having a much better day! :)

Sunday, August 8, 2010

Sunday UN-funday

It's only 2:42 in the afternoon and yet it looks and feels like it's 5:30p. It's rainy, dreary and boring. I keep trying to think of something different to do to kind of wake me up from my funk that I've let become my life for the past few months. I've thought of joining the Peace Corp, AmeriCorp, moving to a different job, etc. Maybe I can get a telecommuting job and just travel all the time, or maybe I can just save up and move to a remote island for a year.

Since my surgery in April I just kinda shut down. Why? I have no clue...if I knew I would most definitely change it! My BFF suggested that I get a job in a different state or get a job in two states and travel between the two during off seasons. I think the real problem is that I don't really know what the problem is. I just feel as though I'm consumed with repetition....and I can't stand standing stagnant. **Sigh**

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

Online dating is a drag.

Everyone always says how fantastic online dating is and how this friend or that friend found their soul mate and how they're getting married. I beg to differ. Not only do you get judged by your pictures alone but 9 times out of 10 you're going to be contacted by someone who's sole purpose for using the website is just to find someone to 'hook up' with. I'm sorry but I don't want to catch hepaslutalitis. And as a 25 year old professional I am especially tired of getting the little 21 year olds who think that if they tell me that I'm gorgeous and that I am an angel. Little do they know that as far into the game as I am I know all the tricks, pick up lines and my BS meter is very accurate. Maybe I should just put out an add in the paper: '25 year old female seeks mature, respectable, responsible male. Do not contact just meet me at this place at this time.' Or maybe I'll just join a nunnery. lol

Monday, August 2, 2010

'I gave her my heart and she gave me a pen.'

So today I decided to chalk it up and tell the boy that I wanted to come visit him. His response? Well, the gf and I are kinda on a break right now. (I'm thinking sweet action this is my prime chance to tell him that I really like him) thus I continue to tell him that I was thinking about taking a road trip with a friend up that way and thought that I would come see him since it's not too far away from where he is. He thinks this is a great idea! (now I think I'm really about to drive this thing home) He then proceeds to tell me that he's just not in a place in his life right now where he should be in any relationship and kinda just needs to take a break and work on him. Super. I thought that only girls used those lines. I basically put a bow on my heart and hand delivered it to him only to have him throw it on the ground and stomp on it. And so my boring single life continues....