The last few days have been such an emotional roller coaster. I am currently sitting at my desk after a full day of trying not to cry at work. So far, I am successful. Can't promise anything once I get in my car though.
My family tends to leave me out of the loop...about everything. Family member in the ICU? I didn't find that out until 3 days after it happened. Aunt in a car accident? Didn't find out for 4 months after it happened. Grandma has cancer? Didn't find out for 8 weeks after she was diagnosed. The list goes on and on. No matter how many times I say something about it and complain about how unfair it is, it never changes. I have often thought that I could change the way my family communicated. Unfortunately, every attempt on my part has been unsuccessful.
I can't change who my family is nor can I change the way they operate. But I can change my involvement. I am sick and tired of finding out serious family issues from 3rd party people.
People wonder why I'm so over emotional and sensitive? It's because I'm processing and expressing enough for the entire freaking family!
Sorry that this post was so negative and vent-y but it is what it is.