Today I was looking through all of the facebook suggestions of people I may know and want to friend because of our mutual friends. As I skimmed through I kept seeing all these people from High School or Church Camp or even some of my family members that I choose to not speak to (much to my parent's dismay). None of these people are people I would want to friend because I can't go back to the fake happy that is Edmond Memorial. The place where your peers drive Mercedes to school and live in mansions with tennis courts in the backyard and everyone is happy because nothing could ever go wrong.
It got me thinking about the past and how much I have changed as a person since I was younger. It's been almost 9 years since I graduated High School. Back then all I was concerned about was Choir competitions and making sure that I was different enough to stand out in a crowd yet normal enough to fit in. My friends were all a year older than me with the exception of my choir buddies. And until my junior year I never really hung out with anyone in my same grade until I was forced into it when all my friends graduated. As far back as I can remember I've never had problems making friends or fitting in with anyone...I find you can always relate to someone on some level no matter who they are or what they do. But I always veer toward the older crowd.
The person I am today is much different from the person I was when I was younger. From freshman year in college on I blossomed into a completely different person that I like very much. I'm no longer concerned with what people think about me, I'm a bit of a workaholic and I try to fill every moment with the fun I never had as a kid. And now I know who I am and I know the me that everyone thinks I am and it still makes me happy to be me.